The Septimus Notes

Sunday, April 30, 2006

|Best Week Ever.|

So this was definitely the best week of my life. With the scholarship on Monday, the internship on Wednesday, and then my Birthday Party Field Day yesterday with perfect weather and lots of great friends (many of whom, in turns out, were already friends and didn't know that they had me in common or had even spoken at all recently) -- I have no doubt in my mind that, from here on out, it's all downhill. But maybe it'll be a gentle slope that will flatten out to a nice plain.

And my life is rather fantastic right now. It has been for a while. Sure, there is the ever present problem of not feeling attractive and having every boy that I ask out turn me down and not having boys ever ask me out themselves, but that's a minor ripple in what is otherwise satin wonderful.

I was speaking with Julianne yesterday, she came down from Harvard Law to take part in the festivities, about how wonderful my life was. I said that I wonder if it's truly great or if it just seems great in comparison to how it was before. She was quick to counter with, "Uh, you got a full-tuition scholarship to NYU." And I backed away at that point because at the time it seemed a good one, but in thinking more about it, her point wasn't really that good. I mean, a full scholarship, so what? Should one stupendous thing mean that my whole life is better/great/good?

I really don't think so. I do not think that my life has been made wonderful by my scholarship. What I do think is that my life is wonderful because I was in a posistion to apply to law school, get into many terrific law schools, and be awarded a full-tuition scholarship to one of them. My life is not awesome because I got selected for the internship program, but because I am in a place and a state of mind to present a strong application and show that I am not only qualified, but a good fit for the program.

Even just a few years ago, this would not have been the case. I would not have been in the right place physically or mentally to go for and achieve any of this. And I certainly do not want to suggest that I've done it all on my own. Far from it. It's been luck, pluck and great friends, I'm sure.

The scholarship is merely epiphenomenal: an indication of the vast improvements that my life has undergone in the past few years.

Really, could it be my best week ever without overanalysis?

promulgated by SWS2.1 at 15:45.
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